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Faded shades of me.- rain seriesSky drums a beat as steady as a tide,
Raindrops & ground collide,
Rain creates a rhythm, fast is its pace,
Tears rolling from my eyes matches the beat on my face,
This steady drip-dropping of rain
Makes me wonder if the entire world echoes my pain?
Music of nature & the beat of my heart
Feels like combining into harmonic parts,
The melody made from the pain that life bring
Awakens the thunder, makes it all start to sing.
Listening to the thunder, I cry to sky
It always rains when I'm sad & it knows exactly why?
The flow of my tears strike up a chord,
The pain in my heart feels like a sword
Calming down rain starts to slow,
My heart gathers all woes to make a final song for the last show
Gathering all the strength I can,
I wipe another tear from the corner of my eye,
The last chord of rain lifts my heart towards the sky..
Prayers - unspoken words from heartWhen everything feels like falling apart,
Countless fears gather in your heart.
When no one's help is going to make it any better
Your soul starts to shatter.
When you want your scars to heal,
You just need someone trustworthy for real.
When all your efforts end up in vain,
You're left with nothing but pain.
When things keep on getting harder and harder to explain,
Inner peace doesn't seem to remain.
When life truly feels like its made of glass,
The thought of it not shattering is hard to surpass.
When you feel like you're gonna fall,
There is no support as you recall.
When being at a place feels like nowhere,
Despair is all that's everywhere.
When no light is to be found anywhere,
Around us darkness seems to be making a sphere.
When soul starts to tear,
The awful silence is hard to bear.
When a ray of hope is not there,
Your heart still believes it lies elsewhere.
All you need to do is look up and make prayers,
The ONE YOU NEED is above all those layers!
Prisoner of lonelinessI am the prisoner of my loneliness
It sucks away my happiness
Filling me with depression and sadness
Scattering my soul in darkness
The cursing darkness makes me scream with pain
A tear drops
A fire that burns inside me
Ashes of my memories and happiness
A feeling of emptiness
Here I die
From my eye
A tear drops
A pain held for so long
Lost the battle and drops
Seeing I'm all alone
My smile drops (fades away)
Asking for happiness
Asking for joy
Craving for love
Craving for care
On my knees
Watching the sky
Shedding people's tears
My faith drops
Seeing each drop of rain
Crying with me
My heart drops
My silent screams
My silent whispers
My voice drops
Recalling my wounds
My scars ache
My soul drops
Loosing my battle
Loosing my life
My defenses drop
Watch how I die
Watch me bleed
And your tears shall drop.
MY BEST FRIEND RAINMY BEST FRIEND RAIN
Today when I cried,
Somebody cried with me,
Letting me empty all my pain,
Shed every single tear I was holding back.
I felt like that somebody felt my pain,
Like I've felt its pain in past.
I felt like running with that somebody,
Letting my tears fall from my eyes
Letting 'em mingle in its own tears.
Letting my pain out,
Leaving behind all sorrows,
Falling on my knees
Recalling the days without such pain.
But then I realize somebody always come to me when I need it,
Somebody whose always with me,
When I feel lonely,
Somebody comes to share my loneliness,
Changing it into togetherness.
Somebody comes when I feel left out or sad.
When I feel happy,
Somebody comes to share my happiness,
When I feel like crying,
Somebody comes to cry with me.
Somebody never leaves me alone!
Somebody whose like a true friend!
Somebody whose always there for me!
Even if I hate it,
Even if I pray for it never to come again,
It'll always come to share my joys, h
The Rain criesTonight when I was on my bed
Slowly I hear its drops fall on my roof
From the window I see it drop on the grass
And on the leaves
I hear its soft whispers
I lay awake hearing the rain drops drip
I hear its cries
I hear its weeps
I get up
Head towards the exist
To feel the rain
To feel its pain
Feeling its cold mystic breeze
I embrace it's freezing yet gentle touch
It's so soothing
My tears to mingle in its drops
Do you know it has its own voice?
Try to listen
You can hear its soft whispers
Hear the song it splatters on the ground
Every single leave hears it
The grass embraces it
And hide its drops of pain
It tried to be strong for a little longer
Then it realized it can't hold on longer
So it releases all the drops it was holding back
It released the anger
It released the hatred
It released the hurt
It released the exhaustion
It released anxiety
It released depression
It released all the pain
The rain cries
The rain mourns
My smile fades
Listen To The Rain CarefullyDid you ever try to listen carefully to the rain
Did you ever hear it's silent moans of pain
Ever tried to hear it's voice of reason
Or did you ignore it throughout the season
Do you take it for granted
Expecting to come when ever it's a pleasant season
It makes some of you happy
Some of you sad.
Some of you recalling beautiful and memorable moments
Some of you recalling sad and painful moments
Some of you feeling loneliness
Some of you walking in the rain
Wanting your tears to mingle with the rain drops.
Do you cherish its presence?
In the fear of its evanescence
Why haven't you ever tried to listen to the rain?
It's every drop is full of pain
Wanting someone to realize
Are you scared to hear its cries of pain?
Why don't you listen to its reason?
Can't you see every drop tries to guide you throughout the season?
Please don't take it for granted
Just listen and try to understand
And if you ever acknowledge the rain
Don't be scared of its disappearance
Just try to take in the knowledge
Tear Filled EyesWith tear filled eyes,
I sit in a dark corner
Shattered into pieces
Alone is a small word for what I am
What I'm going through is more than I can stand
I wonder if I die will anyone care
At my funeral will anyone be there
Will anyone cry?
To see me soul-less
Leaving behind all my sorrow,
Pain and cries
In the mirror my reflection I stare
All my thoughts are more than enough to bear
Filled with wrath
Filled with greed
Filled with pain
Filled with loneliness
Filled with emptiness
Filled with tears
Shall I let sins consume me?
From the mirror I look at my lonely shadow on the wall
Then I look at my wrist
I look at the scars
I clench my fist
With envy I look at the ones who have a true and a very special friend
Their hurt will always find a way to mend
Their tears will always be wiped off
Their cries will always be turned into smiles
Their screams will always be heard
Their wounds will always heal
They'll always smile for real
Their loneliness will always be re
Master Named DesireWe all have a master named desire
It lives inside us
Occupies its place itself
It makes us do things we don't want to do
A master that's always the possessor
Never ever a possession
It leads us on promising joy
It makes us walk on a path that it shows us
It overshadows our goodness
It engulfs us
It drives us forwards with the threat of pain
In its words, it sings,
Songs of hope,
To make us believe in it
It hides all the pain,
And loneliness we can get
It surrounds us from all sides
We treat them like a king or a queen
We chase it,
Hunger for its light and warmth
We serve it like servants,
Fulfill its hunger throughout our lives
It shatters us
Yet we let it possess us
I Tear My Skin AwayI Tear My Skin Away
I tear this skin from my body,
Even if the world screams,
That I am only an illusion.
I tear the bones from my legs,
Through pain, I will grow,
Through suffering, I will become.
I rip the muscles from my arms,
These teeth from my jaws...
And with nothing upon me,
I carry on...
Like a broken puppet, still shivering,
Still forcing its way through the darkness;
I tremble for I am nothing...
And yet, I am moving. My voice still screams...
I draw breath into these tired lungs,
As I rip the flesh away...
And I shatter these mirrors before me,
With a voice that will not break:
Because the world cannot label me as nothing,
And I will live for my own sake!
"So tell me, is that all the pain you've got for me?"
You're worth so much moreShe was the type
to cut her wrists,
and then swallow the
because looking at what
was even harder
but I want to tell her
to let the emotions
p i l
out of her mouth,
instead of her
and that I'll gladly
let the words slice me,
if it means
You're beautifulPlease eat.
Are you listening to me?
If you are,
I want to tell you.
You re beautiful.
It doesn't matter what you weigh,
you shouldn't feel guilty about what you ate.
It doesn't matter,
I promise you things will get better.
Listen to my words,
Hold my hand.
Don't worry about the rest of the world,
It's okay if they don't understand,
How it feels like,
To feel fat,
To feel ugly,
To feel worthless.
You are none of those things.
It s okay to be chubby,
It s okay to be skinny.
Because you have a big heart.
And your smile,
Is like a priceless work of art.
And I don't want to see you destroy,
Because you're more than just a broken toy.
And to everyone else,
So for once let yourself be,
Accept your reflection.
Because you are the definition of perfection.
So don't worry,
Don't be sorry,
To be who you are.
Because you re,
Those Green Eyes (Or: Don't Lie to Your Kid)Those green eyes -
The green of joy
The green of hope
The green of love and acceptance -
Were always full of lies.
They first lied when I said,
After a nightmare at four am
When I was too small to reach a light switch,
“Will you ever leave me?”
And those eyes said,
Why did those green eyes
Shut when I needed them most?
"Are you okay?"
Would be a red line
That I would etch into myself
Those green eyes melted.
Those green eyes did shine
And I knew what it was -
I was young, not stupid -
But I indulged the lie,
For those green eyes.
"Will it get better?"
I asked one sunny Saturday
At ten in the morning
And those green eyes looked away;
“And you’ll be here forever?”
There were no words.
I made up my own affirmative.
Those green eyes -
When they saw
How I’d rubbed myself raw
notes on a matchbook love.if I were the type
to say how I really felt,
I'd tell you that
I hope you choke on your apologies
like they're arsenic
and your nails are already
with the poison.
I'd let you know
that I'll never be a body
for you to touch
just because I know that's all you want.
I'll never be a fairy in a bottle
at your waist.
this is no storybook, and
I am no myth.
hear my silence,
feel the cold absence
respond to your weak "I'm sorry"s.
I beg you,
stop digging the hole,
stop, just stop.
Hush and watch the flames
engulf the image you sold me.
you can tell me
I'm beautiful as much
as you want,
but I know that it's not enough,
that you'll always want more,
that you've been a wolf
between my legs all this time
and my fingers are bruised
from holding the leash.
now every time you whisper
"please be okay",
I will always tell you that
I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine.
I will forever pretend
that I've grown up from you,
that I've become a mystery
What is Hope?Hope is something we have as children,
It helps us thrive and try our hardest.
Hope is what we express in the worst of times
When all hope seems lost.
Hope is what people possess in life
To work toward our dreams.
Hope is a lie
That's not worth our time.
I miss youYou are a ghost in my head
Living, yet you haunt my thoughts today
To speak your name
Would be to desecrate this space
Where you are, I should not care to know
But you are a never-healing wound
An unfulfilled promise
A chance to do no wrong
My memories burn with your taste, your touch, your smell
Who have I become?
Too long have the years been to me
To find myself wishing for the crossroads
For the chance to say no, one more time.
AnxietyAnxiety tapping on my door,
"Can I come inside your head?"
I shiver, not ready for its visit.
It charges in, smelling of worry.
Spends a morning, afternoon and night,
playing with my emotions.
A marionette dancing its old tune on rough strings.
Leaves me winded and praying to beat it the next time.
I Know You're Strong, Let's Be Stronger TogetherI Know You're Strong, Let's Be Stronger Together
if i’m being completely honest,
i can’t say i know what you’re goin’ through.
and if i’m being frank,
i’m sort of afraid to write this
because i’ve always been unsure
if i love too much but it’s my nature
and i’d rather lose by trying too hard
than to do so without doing enough.
i hope you’re asleep now
and i hope you don’t read this
till the morning and i hope by then
things will be a little lighter
but i’m hoping against hope
because if you don’t know,
i feel when things are off.
call it intuition, call it a feelin’,
say i just know it.
my friend, my door is always open
even when you’re feeling closed
off to the world and right there,
i can understand that feeling well,
because i still feel we relate to one another
better than most brothers understand their sisters.
know i look at you as a sibling
and i believe we know when the other
Ek Kahani Hai.Baarish k katron mein chuppi ek kahani hai,
Hazaaron ghamon, hazaaron dard sey likhi ek kahani hai,
Meri nazron mein chupa hai ab bhi aks tera,
Na maang sakoon tujhay, wajah ek kahani hai.
Dil rota hai barish ki har boondh k sath,
Meri baybasi ki ek kahani hai.
Chubhan hoti hai meri roh mein,
Tootti saanson ki ek kahani hai.
Mat poch is dil k tootnay ki wajah,
Raiza raiza howay meray wajood ki ek kahani hai.
Pocha hai jo tum nay in aansuon, is baychaini ki wajah,
Chuppay kai raazon ki ek kahani hai.
Meray lab pe hain ab bhi kai duain,
Hazaron khuwahishon ki ek kahani hai.
Meray haath ab bhi uthein hain duaon k lye,
Maanga hai kya yeh ek kahani hai.
IronmanHear me read it
My friends used to call William "Ironman" because the first time we kissed he got a nosebleed and the taste of his blood haunted me for a long time after it. We'd only been twelve years old and apparently the anxiety spiked his blood pressure to the point of combustion... I remember that when we were forced to take sex ed a few years later we were divided into separate classes for boys and girls, in case a diagram of an ovary was too risqué and we became animalistic and started clawing at each other in our seats, but nonetheless when our teacher Ms Jacobs had explained to us what an erection was in my mind all I could picture was the blood rushing to his nose and then the slash of cranberry across my blouse.
With the idea planted in his mind it didn't take long for William's hands to start wandering, but the image persisted. Every time I thought about just letting it happen I wondered what would happen if he got too excite
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